Not sure how to summarize my thoughts at the moment. And I don’t know how deeply I want to dive into this whole world situation, especially on the internet, the place of 1,000 opinions and endless contradictory information.
What I do know is that fear is going to worsen the situation. There’s a lot of uncertainty as to what we’ll have to endure next in terms of disaster prep, and people are preparing for the worst. I don’t want to be unprepared for what’s to come, but I also don’t want to completely lose my shit. I just don’t know how long this situation will last, and what the outcome will be when we get through it.
On a positive note, this should be an amazingly productive time for me, as sitting at home not working or socializing or traveling anywhere, while being snowed in means that I have all the time in the world to read more and start posting again. But I don’t know how much I’ll actually be able to accomplish, as the state of things makes me feel very off. Not being allowed to leave or gather in large groups, it feels like Hogwarts under the rule of Dolores Umbridge. I’m just trying to keep my cool here, but watching something go from a beer meme to a full-on global crisis is extremely unsettling.
At the same time, this is a great time for escapist reading. Just really losing myself in another world to escape the impending doom in my own world. I don’t want to hyper-analyse the impacts of this virus on my life to the point where I just depress myself. It’s time to revisit some of my favorite feel-good fantasy and adventure books. I still want to achieve my 20 Less Books in 2020 Goal, but I need some encouragement, as I’ve fallen off the reading wagon and have gotten very addicted to phone games once again. Curse their clever engineering that keeps you wanting more, even after you beat the level!
On a more serious note, living in a rural area prepares you for hunkering down and riding out hard times. We go without, we live through power outages and blocked roads. I have been flooded in my home in winters past and will soon be snowed in as this snow keeps piling up in California. We’ve survived off rice, beans, and potatoes, and maybe a couple unlucky, crunchy spiders.
We will endure.
Just the fact that I feel better after saying that means that we are really about to test our endurance in the weeks and months to come.
I just don’t want my sister’s high school graduation to be cancelled… There’s not many other things that I can’t go without until this whole thing clears up.
Stay clean out there, stay alone, stay alert, and don’t get too bored being stuck at home with only virtual ways of communication. Oh wait, that should be easy. I suppose we’ve been preparing for mandatory “social distancing” for quite a few years now…